Ai fen

Ai fen

Ai fen x Buitenmens: Algorithms

I try to get up before the sun.
Tongue the darkness, feel the silence.
I wanna see the world rise,
come on up out of that line.

Slow and sly,
like it’s a spy and
we’re going to play
but who’s,
the eye? (2x)

Chorus:
How do you know me?
How do you know me?
Why should we be friends?
How do you know me,
How do you know me?
We’re strangers but,
I’ve slept in your house.

The light has taken its course and run.
Another day, I’m overcome.
I haven’t seized shit.
Come on up out of that line.

Slow to die,
don’t be surprised
you thought you’d play but you’re out,
of time. (2x)

Chorus:
How do you know me?
How do you know me?
Why should we be friends?
How do you know me,
How do you know me?
We’re strangers but,
I’ve slept in your house.

MYŚLIWY

Uroruro:
ponad wieżą czasem czaszką / above the tower sometimes with the skull
zderza się wszystko ze wszystkim/ everything collides with everything
stare korale ten talizman znaleziony/ old beads, this talisman i found
kiedy upadłem / when i fell

Ai fen:
Kiedy upadłam / when i fell
Kiedy…upadłam / when…i fell
Kiedy. Upadłam? / when did i fall?

ponieważ jestem sama / because i am alone
śmieję się z własnym śmiechem / i laugh with my own laughter
powieki rozczulone/ eyelids, touched (emotional)
łzy pod kruchym lodem / tears under fragile ice
migoczą jak rybki w stawie wujka/ flash like fish in the pond of an uncle
który nigdy nie jest smutny / who is never sad

ty mnie nie znasz / you don’t know me
ale podoba się ci / but you like
moja twarz / my face
więc ją bierz / so take it
i uciekaj / and get away

uroruro:
AI-fen zadrżała ponownie/ Ai fen shuddered again
Na obiad na wieków wieków amen/ for dinner forever and ever amen

This Analog Desire (Makes Me Slow)

We are not,
Going to meet after all
We are, one burnout
Too many
Too LATE.

This ANALOG,
desire
makes me slow
Slow down,
SLOW.

slowdown, slowdown

Slow, slow,
Slow summer nights.
Under meteor skies.
Spent burning on the ground,.
I want to see winter,
Silent & Sound
Feel safe in repetition
Slow it down.

We are not,
Going to meet after all
This ANALOG,
desire
makes me slow
Slow down,
SLOW.

Ai fen: As I Thought

I want to live inside,
your bones
Make myself clandestine,
a home
I’ll visit you once a week
Maybe less,
nevermore

Chorus:
I dreamt I
re-organized my skin
I dreamt I
tore it out
to let you in

I GUESS I’M NOT AS CEREBRAL
AS I THOUGHT

Lust is lethal
A slow poison
Freezes your veins
Like someone watching you
While you sleep

Chorus:
I dreamt I
re-organized my skin
I dreamt I
tore it out
to let you in

I GUESS I’M NOT AS CEREBRAL
AS I THOUGHT

About

Ai fen is my Other-ed Self.

Ai fen is my Chinese name, given to me at birth as a counterpart to my first, Polish name. Ai-fen is spelt with a hyphen, but I have decided to omit it. In doing so I refuse the simplicity of hyphenated identities so often put upon the children of immigrants. To be hyphenated is to be implicated in a play of both prioritization and afterthought. Our identities are never so straightforward as to be placated with a hyphen. What they require is space.

Ai fen is powered by Keychange — an international campaign led by Reeperbahn Festival, PRS Foundation and Musikcentrum Öst, supported by the Creative Europe Programme of the European Union, in partnership with Tallinn Music Week, Iceland Airwaves, BIME, Oslo World, Linecheck, Ireland Music Week, SACEM, Liverpool Sound City, Way Out West, Spring Break, MAMA, Mutek and Breakout West